I write this on my boredom moment. This is happened because of my random mind, i’m nothing to do at home. First, i wanna say sorry because my English is so terrible, but write something in English is fun! (My friend said to me like that, and i know she was true).
This month is wet season. Everyday is rain, and rain. And I like it so much. I love the rain sound and the ground smell after rain. I love the cold air, and sky. Gloomy and beautiful.
When I think all about rainfall moment, I have something on my mind. That’s love. Ha ha. It’s crazy because I never think this or talk about that. Yeah, I’m just a little girl (or maybe not really a girl) who don’t know anything about love. Love is nothing. Love is bullshit. I hate love. But now I write it on my paper. I think it on my mind.
What the relation between love and rain?
When the day is so hot like a summer, the sky is blue with little with cloud, and the sun burning you until makes your skin brown, suddenly in a minute sky become dark like evening and there is rainfall. But sometimes when sky is gloomy, winds are blow you, and you hope in that day, in that time, it will rain. But no. Just a gloomy day without rain.
Yeah. Rain just like a love. Love just like a rain. Why I do say that? Because love is unpredictable. I don’t know when the rainfall will comes (sometimes, except in wet season because everyday is rain so I can predict it accurately). Can you predict you will fall in love with someone in some place and time? Can you choose someone you will fall in love? No. You meet someone that is so good, perfect guy or girls, but you feel nothing. But when you meet someone that you think is very bad, not your type or whatever is this, why there’s something different with your feeling? What is that? Love?
Rain is gift from God. But rain can be a disaster. Rain can be dangerous for our life. And so do the love. Love is happiness, but sometimes love can make us feel sad, or maybe wanna die soon. You say “your love is my drug...” in one situation, but it can change to “your love is killing me..”, and you update your facebook status with your sadness about love.
Then, what? I’m in blank situation. So wait a moment, i wanna take a breath. He he. If i have new idea for this random writing, i will type it soon.
Back to the topic, and let’s see my past life. I love that moment. It was rain. And i saw him under the rainfall..., in that moment the time stopped, and so was my heart beat, everything is slow motion, yeah that’s because love poison. Tonight is different. I can’t remember how it’s feel. I feel empty in the same rainfall.
“Cause there’ll be no more sunlight if I lose you, baby There’ll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby Just let the clouds, II will do the same if you walk away Everyday, it will rain...” (Bruno Mars- It Will Rain)
